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Linkin Park’s song playing quite loud on my computer at office. The thick walls prevent the sound to be heard from outside of my office room.

Graffiti decorations
Under a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

Should I run away and leave every ruins behind without looking back? I ask myself again and again why I’ve been trying to hold on to this friendship. Everybody I know suggested to leave him and not to have any kind of contact with him anymore, for an indefinite time. They argued that he had left me once and I should not let myself be left again for the second time. Next time it is I who should leave, they say.

Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

Ya, I want to run away…. I should stop questioning myself why there were mysteries between he and I for I shall not, probably, know why.

I don’t know how to run away. I’m a persistent person. Someone who is used to fighting till the end. I was raised not as a weakling who runs when I find a gravel or hurdle on my path. When I find the obstacle too big to cross, I always try to find another way to get to what I aim. I have never run away…

I’m gonna run away and never say goodbye
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
I’m gonna run away and never wonder why
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
I’m gonna run away and open up my mind
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)

However this time, at this particular time, I want to run away…. Because I’m afraid. Because I don’t know what I want to get by doing this.

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

I wish I could run away… I don’t know whether I’ve taken the right decision that is to stay with the risk of being left again one day with another bruised-heart. Anyway, the decision is taken. I’m going to stick to my word and do my best to hold on and move on. May God have mercy on me and show me a better way while I’m walking this way – the way which I think is best.

I wanna run away
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
And open up my mind

Picture is taken from here.

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